OOOO~ wondrous world~ good night! I'm soo tired.
I havent even eaten dinner and i just got home from night school
OOOOOOOOO~ im tired! im sleepy! im lazy! complain complain complain*~ LOL!
:] hahaha~ I hope everyone else is having a better night that i am. LOL
:]~ It's nice to know everyone else is having a better night that i am, it just makes one of us. LOLL! hahaha :]~
Oooo well then, go to sleep you! :] NITEY NITE
Thursday, April 29, 2010
OOOO~ wondrous world~ good night! I'm soo tired.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Would it be called... writer's block!?! Im working on chapter 3 of Aiko Koufuku... >< I'm still not done! I have a lot of work to do also! ASSIGNMENTS!!! SCHOOL is not ENJOYABLE at all!! LOLL! Ooooo Im tired rite now but im still reading manga. LOLL! Its 4:10 am. LOLLL! Hahahaha~ Anyways, just wanted to continously blog, cuz last time i stopped... I completed stopped for over a year. LOLL! Hahahaha. Anyways, lalalalala~ :]
Monday, April 12, 2010
Written By: Queenie Chan
Chapter 2: Rumors and Hurt
It was a beautiful day, the sun against my face. When i opened my eyes, they would have been blinded by the sunlight but on that day, my eyes were opened as wide as they could, because my eyes met yours.
The whispers of the school felt like piercing knives against my ears and skin. I felt numb once again. All I wanted to do was go to kendo club and release the pain.
"Did you hear, that Aiko from Class C is in the kendo club."
"Does she like Senpai?"
"She's not worthy."
"I hear she speaks to Hibiki"
"Hibiki is so cute and handsome, there is no chance."
"She should keep her distance."
You may find it a little funny, but even the first years spread rumors about me. I could care less about the words that they had said about me, but it hurt those who were nice enough to speak to me, so it hurt much more than it seemed in appearance. The only thing that kept me going was you. You never once thought the same as the others.
I was happy when you spoke to me even though the words that lined the wall of the school stung both you and I, but I was hesitant about continuing to greet you every morning.
"Hibiki, ggood mmorning."
"Don't worry about the rumors."
I was at a lose for words.
"Those words they say... i'm sure they are not true. Aiko. You're not like that. You are much stronger than you seem on the outside... you always have been."
I was definitely at a lose for words, but... happy. All i could do was cry. I wanted to say thank-you. I always wanted to say thank-you, but the words just would not come out. I just cried. You taught me what it felt like to be happy and to be sad.
"Aiko??? O! Did I make you cry? I didn't mean to!"
I couldn't tell myself... whether I was crying or laughing at that time when you said that to me.
"It's not Hibiki."
You just chuckled. It felt unreal... that moment in time... it felt unreal. After that, the rumors just got worse. Maybe it was because you made me open my heart to you, so when I got hurt, it hurt even more than it did not long ago. But, i was willing to accept that pain because I was happy you were willing to accept my love the way you did.
"That Aiko... despisable."
"I hear Hibiki has always protected her so no one has ever been willing to physically hurt her."
"Waste of space."
I actually knew a lot of those words were lies... because I was definitely part of the top ten high marked students. Yet, it hurt... it stung.
"Aiko... is it?"
"Ugh... I'll warn you once... Stay. Away. From. Hibiki."
When she walked away with her followers... i felt a little resilient... maybe it was an attachment. I think that was what it was. I grew attached, attached to Hibiki.
I felt so relaxed when practicing Kendo. It was somewhere I belonged. The sweat that rolled down my forehead and settled on my brow. The morning breeze was cool during morning training. Sparing with Senpai made my worries feel like nothing.
After practice i stood outside to get some fresh air. What was to come... I would say was predictable...
"Stupid girl. We told you stay away from Hibiki now you go and bother Tsubaki Senpai..."
"What a worthless object."
Being pushed around and kicked felt like nothing... what hurt the most was those girls including Hibiki and Senpai into my failures.
"HEY! What do you girls think you're doing?"
"Senpai!?! Nothing... just having a girl chat."
"Is that right now?... Doesn't seem that way. No girl should speak with her fists."
Senpai... for the first time seemed more handsome than publicized. The faces of the girls also seemed to have changed instantly. You could say... from that day on, I idolized Senpai, not because he saved me but because he had the voice I never had to speak up.
"Aiko, are you okay?"
"That's good. You have so much strength when sparing, but you are so different outside of the training room."
"What was that about?"
The only word I remembered myself saying as I left was... rumors.
To Be Continued...
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While i'm working on my next story I thought I would post. Haha. ~
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* Birthdate: 1989-Aug-11
* Birthplace: Taiwan
* Height: 163cm
* Weight: 45kg
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Sunday, April 11, 2010
Written By: Queenie Chan
Chapter 1: Kendo Club
The feeling of love. The feeling of hurt. The feeling of the breeze against my face. The feeling of one's embrace. The feeling of tears running down my cheeks feeling like ice. What were they? What did they really feel like? You taught me all those things. They all in the end... felt like happiness. Strange? To me... it was all I wanted to know. Before you came along, I only knew the word sadness. All other words felt like nothing to me.
High school; the basis of war. Rumors, gossip... you would say... they hurt the most. They hurt more than being hit, kicked or having rocks thrown at you. I have never once felt that hurt when rumors or gossip was spread about me. Words of my hate, my horror or my rejections. It was true that i never had friends. I felt friends were the worst to make. The trouble and betrayals that I would have to endure was just too troublesome. When my classmates eventually got bored of spreading rumors, they found it not worth the effort to be secretive anymore and just said their words to my face. I eventually became dull to all emotions. I found it okay to be alone in the world. I found it okay to be without friendship. I found it okay without the feeling of love. I found it okay without happiness.
That was until I meet you.
A new year, but an old me. This was going to be my last year of high school. My last year of high school, but the rumors have followed me until now. I actually find it a little humorous... but... I feel numb, I can't even force a smile.
"Aiko, good morning!"
I was shocked... more than that... foolish.
"Akiko, ggggggood mmmmmmmmmmmorning..."
I felt naive... someone actually talked to me... but i was foolish enough to believe she wanted to say good morning to me on her own accord. She just walked away to her friends... and all laughed... I felt foolish. I ignored it as always... I didn't think i would ever make any friends either way. But... there was always one person who spoke to me, but i never thought of it as anything... other than just common curtsy. His name was Hibiki. We have been in the same class since second year of high school and because of seating orders, our last names were put next to each other every year. Yamada and Yamato. But, i've known Hibiki since middle school. We've never been very close. The closest we've ever been was saying greets.
"Hibiki ggood mmorning"
That was it. Nothing more. After that, my day went as it had the last three years have. First year was the saddest, I guess... But, my last year was my happiest, no matter how much a suffered, how much was hurt, it was my happiest. Without you, after some point somewhere, my love was yours. Honestly, i never once felt lonely because I was always in the shadows, but it was your shadow which kept me warm.
*School bell rings for end of school*
Class president Suzuki Hina, the idol of many of my classmates. She was intelligent, beautiful, gentle and nice.
Katsunari Kaito, class C's sensei (teacher), he was admired by man of the girls in my high school because of his intelligence, gentleness and youth.
"That will be the end of class. Have a good afternoon class. Yamada Aiko, please see me in the teacher's room for a minute when everyone has been dismissed please."
"You asked for me, Katsunari Sensei?"
"Ah, yes. Please take a seat."
"I see you haven't joined any clubs yet. You'll need to join some clubs and activities or you will not be as good of a candidate for universities as other students will be."
"You have very good grades, you just need to join some clubs. Don't be afraid to join. Find something you like and go for it."
I didn't reply after that. I just asked to be dismissed. I don't have anything I like. I just want to make it through high school. As long as I make it through this round, that is all that matters... I never expected myself to get into university. I just wanted to get myself through high school and i would be satisfied. Well, that's was what I had thought.
"Oh, Aiko, you're still here?"
"Oh right, you had to visit Katsunari Sensei about something. Everything alright?"
He spoke to me? Hibiki spoke to me? For what reason?
"Aiko? You okay?"
"I'll be leaving first then. Bye."
He smiled as he left... Was that at me? That was the first time in the many years we have been in school together that lasted more than two lines. Really, I could think of was joining a club. I cannot even communicate with people, what was I to do? There is nothing I like either. I knew Hibiki was in the judo club. Maybe, I should try something like that. I have experience in kendo. I've practiced it when I was younger because my grandfather practiced Kendo.
"Hibiki, good morning"
During break I went to look for the club president of the Kendo club. Tsubaki Ran, a handsome popular student also rather intelligent and loved by many female students.
"Um, excuse me."
"Tsubaki senpai? Um..."
"I would like to join the kendo club"
"Haha. I heard."
"...From Katsunari Sensei. He said you needed to join a club and that you had experience in kendo, so he
suspected that you would come to me."
"Well then. Yamada Aiko, I shall test you skills before I say yes."
It was casual, but choppy. My first words to Tsubaki senpai. He was nice. He didn't ignore me or treated me arrogantly. The sounds of our hard breathing while fighting. I found kendo refreshing and my only relief from putting on a hard front at school. I eventually found myself practicing kendo very often while I was school.
"You're not bad. Not bad at all."
"Well then, welcome to the club. I will introduce you to the other club members later on."
"You should get to class"
Sitting in class... I felt bored and an outsider. In the kendo club, I felt excitement and as if i belonged. Suddenly, I felt a tap on my shoulder.
"Aiko, you're sweating."
My first physical interaction. You tapped my shoulder. I hadn't noticed when it happened... but our conversations started to get more lengthly.
Everyday, when I found the time, I would go to the kendo club to practice and I would sometimes find time after school and after class activities to go to the kendo club to practice. After I knew it, I became attached. I also made friends... Surprisingly, I made friends. I didn't notice it... but the ice started to thaw and the numbness lessened gradually.
"Aiko, you come to the club a lot now, dont you?"
"You have also gotten much better than before. All the club members agree that you should attend the Kendo
"Yamada-chan, you can do it! We believe you!"
"The club has spoken."
"Yes, Tsubaki Senpai."
"You can call me Ran. There is no need to be so formal."
"Everyone back to practice!"
The cries of all the members during the practices made me feel included. I didn't feel as lonely when at kendo club. Unfortunately, because of my slow growing attention, there were more rumors being told. This time around, it did not only affect me, the me who didn't care of what people said about me, but they affected those around me.
To Be Continued...